a month or two without updating my lil’ cyber world eh? Well I have a lot more going on with my life right now, actually I’ve got piles of photos to post here, but because of the ever grumpy web connection, I just can’t (cause it son’t let me). I got admitted in UP for my Masters degree and got two interview sessions for a publishing company. I’m praying I could have both worlds really, especially that I’m after my career shift, I mean getting my feet back to the real world cause that’s where my heart wants to be ;) As of now, I’m doing good, I have good people around me and I’m happy, cause I choose to be :)

Been addicted with this app already.. haha.. stress-reliever, instant happy-ness provider!

I dedicate this post to one of the closest family friend we ever had. Death, its really scary, I would be lying if I said that I’m not frightened. I fear it not for myself, but because I’d be leaving a lot of people close to me if that would happen. They’ll cry and get hurt and I don’t want them to feel that.

Kuya John Rey, I know you’re in a better place now, its just sad that you already left, so early. You have been so nice to us, to me and especially to my dad. I’ll miss everything you do for us. Those little gestures, it will be remembered. Your daughter and wife, they’ll surely miss you and I bet they’re crying so hard, so much now that you’re gone. Be happy ok.?

Why does life has to be so short?  Appreciate and do whatever makes you happy. Don’t waste time. .. aish…

In loving memories of Kuya John Rey - 03112013

She never let me hug her no matter what I do, yet she lets me pat her head whenever I feel lonely and blue. She bits me every time I hold her for bath and treatments yet she always makes me happy and giddy. She has history of running away from home at night but she’ll come back in the morning, reassuring me that she’ll never leave me no matter what. She loves eating 5 times a day and she complains a lot whenever she’s hungry. Just like a little girl, she loves playing houses the reason why I give her brand new boxes every week. She’s really a vegetarian and loves carrots and anything green and leafy. She’s my bunny, I named her Coco but I lovingly call  her ‘bubbang’, and this is my love-hate-love relationship with my lovely and adorb pet. Just sharing.

OK. I’ll be really good this time. My resolution out of nowhere (cause I just randomly thought f making this post and creating a resolution as I type) is that I will be posting more pictures and will be writing more, all with sense! teehee. cause I’m worried that I write what I speak, the literal way. SO it has to change, cause obviously, there’s a thick line differentiating one from the other. 

Saturday afternoon, no work, no eat (aside from the brunch made by my brother and a green mango for this afternoon, yet I feel so stuffed) and no place to go to. I was left alone today with only my messy room, naughty dog and a hungry bunny with me.I spent the whole afternoon sewing and watching dramas on Neo and lie and ask people and lie and talk and every little boring things you may think of. Because that’s how I spend my days off.. maybe.. or maybe not. Its just I was left with nothing to do at all.. or I just can’t think of anything. hee.

Presenting my ever messy room with needles, thread and fabrics all scattered in my bed. Even I am getting afraid of the needles and pins from pricking me now that they’re swimming every where..

And this is the fruit of my labor for today. @haneingel’s mini-version-of-me doll. This was supposed to be given last year during the holidays, but because I’m not feeling any rush on doing it, I will just have to give it to her before her grad.. A gift for two occasions 

It feels like autumn seeing how leaves of these trees fall down one by one as days pass by…

And this one fingers crossed it will not falter ;)

Now off to rest these eyes of mine ;)

I feel a lil’ bit eerie about everything. It seems that nothing is moving forward in my life, I mean on a more personal note. I’ve met a lot of people, gained friends, deciphered and decoded puzzles, mysteries, issues and even people around me, testing if they’re at their utmost sincerity or not, I myself have been trying my ingenuity and how far can I run with these ideas in my mind. 

I want to move forward, to go places, to find myself or discover more about me, cause right now, I’m in so much pain, even if I’m physically alright and mentally capable. I don’t even suffer emotional complex yet I feel so exhausted and tired of all these ‘stagnant’ moments that is happening in my life. 

Its not with the people around me, they’re the best really. Maybe its just me, and this so-called ‘mission’ of mine, something I am not aware of at all.

If I can escape everything even for just a day, I don’t know. I’m scared that if I come back, the world that I live in right now may be totally altered and that I’ll be a stranger to the place I wanna run away. But to fly beyond this wall of whatever, I really want that to happen.

Sometimes, I have to stop being me so I can be really me. I know its a bit confusing and out of the line but in my head, it makes perfect sense. I really need to get out of this life, even just for a day, go somewhere new, different, somewhere free, somewhere that I can be alone. a place where I can shout as loud as I can, where I can run freely with no one stopping me, a place where I can reach the stars. hah. I’m such a dilly dally.

And I’m totally not making any sense now, do I?

Want a way to de-clutter your mind and throw away that bucket of stress,then go somewhere fun and exciting. And of course, don’t forget to tag along your most trusted friends when it comes to rediscovering HAPPY-ness!

First stop: NUVALI, for lunch. We opt for this Jamaican-inspired restaurant because of its set meals. The experience was superb especially if you get to eat a lot ;’). Food is the best comfort ever! After that, we strolled around the area even though it was scorching hot outside. 

Later, we spent the rest of the day in EK!! Same place yet with different friends and people around, the park sparks as if its not the same every time you visit here.

More photos when I get more spare time.. soon enough ;)

Ciao :*